A few weeks ago I got weary. I’m talking heart numbing, tear shedding, forget about it weary. My prayers (specific ones) were not getting answered and I saw all kinds of destructive behavior flying around like a tornado. I was tired of that and tired of not seeing the fruit of my labors.
One day I had a startling realization. I can’t say it was super spiritual but it was definite. “It is what it is”. With just a little bitter undertone I explained it to God like this: “Okay, God, it is what it is. I cannot do a thing about any of this. I’m tired of trying. If YOU don’t do it, then it’s not going to get done.” I shared it with my husband in my bitter undertone voice – cynical and ready to throw in the towel.
Little did I know that God was waiting on me to get out of His way, to get off His throne and to realize that indeed I CAN DO NOTHING! Even my prayers mean nothing without divine connection to Him.
God evidently was waiting on me to meet the end of myself. And here’s what He did. He sent me a copy of a prophetic message from a pastor in Alabama (via a friend). As I listened to that message I was undone – I knew the Holy Spirit was speaking through this man. My inner man received the entire feast and internally I was changed! I know it’s hard to believe but it’s true.
Within an hour I got a phone call correcting a situation to my delight. Within another hour I was asked about something I’d never been asked about before in my life, to my great delight! By that evening the evidence of God changing hearts, setting things right and answering prayer was fully displayed.
My doubts turned to shouts. Why? Because God changed me! Does this mean everything is hunky dory? No, but this means that I have relinquished my right to be the one who has to fix everything! What a freedom! I no longer have to accept all the fault for others’ wrongs, I no longer have to wash their clothes white for God, and I no longer have to lose sleep, cry my heart out and wonder what I’ve done wrong!
Oh beloved, it’s time for you to go from doubt to Shout! God is with you. He hears your prayers. He loves those you are praying for more than you do! And His plans for you and your situations, loved ones and everything else are good and right and going to happen. Rejoice as you come alive in the Light of God’s Glory & Grace!
Matthew 19:26 And looking at them Jesus said to them, “With people this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”